Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Freaking Out Mindfully

I think freaking out mindfully best describes my state of mind.

Things are progressing with my mom's move to Macon. I can't believe this is happening. I'm so freaked out. There's two stresses. The first is just getting her here -- buying the house, getting her packed, all of that. I've been over to the house three times now to deal with inspections and related issues. I don't really like being the middle person on this -- relaying to her what's happening. Especially since it's so difficult for her to make decisions and she is so ready to rely on me. The second stress is that she will be a part of my day to day life and have such easy access to me.

When we moved to Georgia it was a relief to get away from her and not have her so in my business. I don't want to deal with it. Am I ready to? I think so. Am I stronger then I was then? Yes. But I still don't want to do it.

All of that is just heaped on top of the usual -- work stuff, school starts in four weeks. FOUR WEEKS. I feel like summer just started. I've ordered uniforms and need to fill out forms, buy supplies, etc. J13 has to read two books and write a summary on them. We've barely started.

I'm leaving Saturday morning for a two day meditation retreat at the yoga studio I trained at. Really looking forward to that. Then Sunday evening I'm flying to MD to help my mom pack. Not looking forward to that. Although I'll get some work time in with my boss and I'll be meeting a new client that will potentially/hopefully take me to Amsterdam and other places. So there is good to look forward to.


9 comments:

sherilee said...

One step at a time, you'll make it. Freaking out mindfully is better than just freaking out, for sure. I hope it feels like progress to you...

Safe travels.

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

Mindfully--you crack me up.
Just keep breathing. You're both different people than you were before. Hopefully that makes this round better, right?

Sophia the Writer said...

My favorite therapist always said, "If you shift, s/he has no choice but to shift too."

Jenn @ Juggling Life said...

It sounds like you really need to think about and set your boundaries before she moves--it's probably done easier sooner rather than later.

Store up some zen for later!

Christy said...

Yes, yes, yes, think about and set boundaries. Everyone will be the better for them. Sending you positive vibes and GOOD LUCK.

Samantha Sotto-Yambao said...

Sending positive thoughts your way :)

Unlikely Oilfield Wife said...

Setting boundaries is a great idea, but I know how hard that can be. Just breathe and take it one day at a time.

Green Girl in Wisconsin said...

It's so random, what one person cherishes and another deems trash. But you're there, hanging in there, walking behind her and redelegating the piles to their proper spots.

V-Grrrl @ Compost Studios said...

We own a second house that we rent out, and July has been consumed by all things related to property issues and rentals. Back and forth and back and forth and back and forth as we get one tenant out, another in. Repairs, cleaning, lease issues, etc. Hard enough to be in the middle of this on my own behalf, I'd hate to be involved in someone else's transaction.

Hang in there. I hope things find their balance in the coming months.